I think I’m over him.
I’m trying to convince myself that I am over him. That he is not important anymore. That all I can think about is Merlin because I completely love the show, as it is my all time favorite! But then I notice him with every movement that he makes and I smile. And then I’m trying to convince myself (and lying to my friends) that I am over him. I should be. I need to. Seriously, he is not that important. Ugh, darn it, he’s still on my mind.
The same row, only a desk separated.
First exam is english. I’m seated on one of the tables near the main door, and is on the same row as RAM. I am so excited about this. Then I discover that one of my friends (not that close) is in the desk that is separating me and RAM. I talk to her and I talk back. And then RAM is brought into the conversation on the topic of english. And then as quickly as it started the conversation is over and its time for the first exam. Wish me luck.
Vaguely studying chemistry.
I had just went home just before lunch. My mind says time for a break, but afterwards my dad say it is time to study. Yes, study for a test which I know will be easy (i hope). But I can’t concentrate it seems. As I am utterly distracted. Heh..I’ll study tomorrow.
Merlin.
You know there is this show, which I actually like better than Heroes, and it’s called Merlin. I found it about two weeks ago, while surfing through the channels, and then finally stopping at the syfy channel. It’s a show that basically deals with Merlin (the old guy with the big long beard) as a teenager and it’s his job to protect Arthur (the future king). Basically, they’re about the same age. Which is unusual. The only reason why its unusual is because I read a book called, “The Once and Future King”, and Merlin was way old and Arthur was way young. Not the close friendship that is portrayed in “Merlin”, mind you. But, hey it works. With their witty humor and a touch of magic, and a clueless kingdom that is oblivious to it all (this includes Arthur). Ahh…I cannot wait until the next episode (squee)!
Simply relaxed and not studying (at all).
I am totally distracted and absolutely relaxed. All I could think about is Merlin. And then I read fanfics and watched videos (practically the same thing I do every time I’m obsessed about something). Okay, I did study, occasionally. But each time was about ten minutes or less. Afterwards, the cycle would begin again. Hmmm…I just want to finish my exams now, you know? Now that I know that I am officially ready.
Actually studying for math.
Yesterday, I had spent the whole day studying. But actually I was just writing down notes. This means that I wasn’t actually studying (as I was too busy writing), but I had read online that this should help me remember things much more clearly. However, that simply wasn’t enough to keep my mind calm, from the next day (which is today). So I woke up early and practiced some problems. This time for a good two hours. Hmmm…crazy right? It better be, because that’s how crazy I exactly am!
Little time for english.
After I studied for math, I went on to study english. English, by the way, is the first exam for Monday. However, you see, my teacher decided not to give us a study guide, claiming that she will hand us a poem, in which we are expected to explicate. Ugh…darn teacher. My only option is to look at the examples she gave us and the vocab that she had provided, but will not be on the test. Ugh…did I mention how crazy my english teacher is? Yes, I think I did.
Math on endless hours.
So basically this whole day is spent studying for my math final on Monday. I honestly don’t know what has gotten over me. I am paranoid, I know. I know that well enough about myself, especially when it comes to grades. And right now I am paranoid of failing math and all I kept thinking was: “Great just great. At this rate I am so heading to summer school.” This alone was enough to keep me focus, even though my head was tired and close to falling asleep. Hmm…I need to eat sugar just to keep myself up. Ugh..I better stop doing.
The english worksheet.
Just after I finished writing the studyguide for english. I’m on my break right now and is currently doing any homework that needs to be done for Web Design. Afterwards, I need to look up the answers for the english worksheet. I’m doing that now. Only the thing is I can’t find it on the school website. Hmmm…that’s strange didn’t my english told us that she would provide it online? I think there is serious problem with the schools website.
Chemistry mindset.
Directly after english I made sure that I focused on chemistry, which I am, right now. The only real hard part was section one. Ugh, I can’t remember this. Guess that means a long study session for me. Kay, I’m going off.
